One day your going to understand why i do the things i do. My job, i feel on this planet, is to protect and to serve. To keep the peace in my life, i need to make sure everyone is happy; ultimately making me happy inside. I search for bliss but only found it a few times in my life, waiting for it to strike again. I have so much on my plate and i have to do what i feel is best for me to achieve my goals. The last thing i want to do is hurt anyone. I find a way to hurt the ones i love without meaning to. I am lethal so to speak. I can love with a thousand guns and shut down like there is no tomorrow. It is both a blessing and a curse. I wish i could set everyone free of any worry. I wish i could give you the world and be only a piece of furniture in your life to watch you create your own happiness. Im going to do the hardest thing ive ever done but in the end game it will benefit you. I want it to be painless. Id go to the ends of the earth for you and then some. I love you with all my heart forever and always. Just please i beg, don’t hate me.